Last
night I had planned on going to bed early. Around ten, I sat at my desk to
clean out some receipts from my wallet and throw them in the shred box. This is
a simple task that should have taken no more than ten minutes. However, I found
myself sitting there, staring at the wall, and thinking. A very dangerous habit
but one that I can’t seem to break. Before I knew it, midnight had come and
gone and I was just getting ready for bed.
Since
the moment we found out that we are having a baby there have been moments here
and there when I would catch a glimpse of how drastically our life would change.
Last night was the first time when I really sat and thought about all that
needs to be done and everything that we will have to shift around in our life.
While time is one consideration, space is another and as I looked around our
office, there are a lot of things that need to be changed by the end of the
year.
It
is nothing that we can’t handle but it is going to take some thought to plan
out the moves necessary to maximize the limited square footage of our
apartment. What can I say, we have a lot of stuff. But that is part of the process;
that is part of the change that occurs during this stage in life; out with our
stuff, in with the baby stuff. It makes me wonder what George Carlin would have
to say about this change in stuff status.
Contrary
to what you might originally think, it is kind of a relief. While there are a
lot of things that we will be holding on to, it brings to my attention all the
things that we never should have held on to in the first place. We’re not
hoarders but we are not living a minimalistic life either. It reminds me of
when we decided to move to Israel; we had to look around and figure out what we
really wanted to keep and what we could get rid of. While this is not as
extreme, we now need to focus on what things we want to take with us on this
new adventure.
So
now, in addition to the cleaning that is already long overdue, it is time to
sort and organize so that we can begin preparing for the life that we have
always dreamed of which is now, slowly, becoming a reality. I am sure that
there will be times when the stress will outweigh the optimism but, overall,
these moments when I am just able to sit and think quietly are the ones that
will continue to fuel my anticipation. In between, I am going to continue
working, cleaning, organizing, and trying my best to prepare myself for the
changes on the horizon.
Not looking forward to that 'stuff'! |
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